Wait

"Wait."

It's the most clear message I can hear from God. 

"But God! I'll go anywhere and do anything You ask! Just tell me!"

"Just wait, daughter."

My feet are planted firmly in reality and my ears are the most open -- if I am being honest...waiting for anything but "wait." Haha. The emotions of the last trip have stabilized, events have been processed, and I'm "ready"...okay, God! I'm here for my next assignment! Where to next?!

"WAIT."

Sigh. Why is waiting so hard?! The longer it goes on, the more impatient I get for what is to come. But what I am learning in the waiting is that it is in the waiting that I learn the most.

I've been thinking about James 1: counting it joy in trials (i.e. when I have to wait). In the waiting, I have to be so intentional to seek Jesus out. In the Philippines, it feels like the Holy Spirit is present every other moment! In Portland, it's usually me on the couch, looking despondently out the window. God is in the small struggles as much as the big moments. I think that God uses all this waiting time to mature my faith so that I can handle the big moments without falling apart. He just wants me to spend time with Him. He wants this steadfast faith to be as effective as possible, perfect and complete, lacking nothing. (James 1:4)

So in light of that, " I will look to the Lord, I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me." (Micah 7:7)

"Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be CONSTANT in prayer." (Romans 12:12)

In Acts 16:6-10, Paul senses the Spirit closing the door to traveling to Asia so he waits in Troas. He has a dream that a Macedonian man stands over him and says, "Come to Macedonia and help us." Paul wakes up and "concludes that God has called us to preach the gospel to the Macedonians" and so he goes. 

I hope one day to hear God's call so clearly and then obey.